reallity in the unreal life

manual of warrior of the light

2007-08-27T21:04:00.000+03:00

A warrior of light knows that certain moments repeat themselves.

He often finds himself faced by the same problems and situations, and seeing these difficult situations return, he grows depressed, thinking that he is incapable of making any progress in life.

‘I've been through all this before,’ he says to his heart. ‘Yes, you have been through all this before,’ replies his heart. ‘But you have never been beyond it.’

Then the warrior realises that these repeated experiences have but one aim: to teach him what he does not want to learn.

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life like a lemon

2007-08-26T19:35:00.000+03:00

sometimes i just wonder..why the sour things are more the sweet ones...?
i know that in the bottom of everything is the lemon(this is how i call to the sadness) and up is the strawberry..

sweet home alabama

2007-03-26T16:05:00.000+03:00

Its really weired i know, but everytime when i watch the movie "sweet home alabama " i cry in the end...i think its so women movie...

.........

2007-03-19T15:41:00.000+02:00

Sometimes
the success of others, or even thier hapiness makes me to realize how stupid and weak i am...how hard is to follow my way and to touch my dreams...how hard is every step i'm trying to make...and how tired i am from all those tries in the end...how hopless i became after every new collapse...

a letter to my dad

2007-02-04T16:38:00.000+02:00

Dear dad, today is your birthday... Just one year left since u passed by... but it seems like many things happaned in that time...many things changed me, many bad moments were between me , mom and my brother..but in the end the world is still the same. The people are still cold even colder to eachother....they still puch eachother on the street, buses, shop... The weather is getting warm , this is the first year rom more then 4 years when here is like spring... The prices getting up..and the life is harder then before...one bread is like a can of coke... The sun is till shining, but i don't like the sun really in the winter.. My granny has no more tears to cry, but the thing that makes me really sad that she do that because of public...and still belive that sadness have to be in privite..its sth personal and deep, nobody can't understand it like you do. The streets back home are empty, maebe because of the winter..i'm wathing for the time when the blossom of the linden's tree will smell again in our street... When i miss you i just go back in my childhood and i remember the moments we spent together... I miss u... I still remember your words..that: " there is an angel who is watchign over me" is that you?

"Sun"

2007-01-29T15:21:00.000+02:00

let the world be the world let the dream unfurl let it run its own game let it dance with itself I didn't put it here gonna let it ride gotta master, crazy on the other side wakin' me up
I ain't got no brains I can't trust my eyes what good's a beautiful day if you can't see the light? I can't find my fate well then I must be blind with the force and fire of love that's takin over my mind wakin' me up obligin' me to the sun obligin' me to the sun sun sun merciful one sun sun sun sun won't you lay down your light on us sun sun let the world be the world let the girl be the girl let her beauty move ya let her dance be your guide let your hunger grow but don't eat the fruit "too low" keep climbin' for the kisses on the other side wakin' me up obligin' me to the sun obligin' me to the sun
sun sun merciful one sun sun sun sun won't you lay down your light on us sun sun

all we need is to come into the sun we've been out in the dark for so long all I need, all we need, all I need, all we need! yeah!

2007-01-24T11:32:00.000+02:00

I'm lookingt through the window
and all i see if just a rain spots on my glass.
they are going down so slowly...
like my steps of shyness when i see you...
the wind in my hair is like a soft touch from you...
just don't leave..stay for more 1 min....
once you said i will see you after 4 years again...
was it some kind of predictions...or just the way how you felt...
Billion minutes past and they brought moments that changed us so deeply...
is that the last time to be separated..or just the beging of my loneliness..

Across the universe

2007-01-09T13:02:00.000+02:00

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world.

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
That call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they
Tumble blindly as they make their way
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Nothing's gonna change my world.

Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my openED ears inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a
million suns, it calls me on and on
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Jai guru de va, jai guru de va
jai guru de va, jai guru de va
jai guru de va.

Jai guru de va, jai guru de va.

Fiona Appla

2007-01-09T11:09:00.000+02:00

Love is like a flower....
its so soft ad needs a water be fresh...
Love is like a flower...
smelling good and makes you smile....
Love is like a flower...
sensitive and always fresh...
Love is like a flower...
its took too long to be groth...
Love is like a flower...
always beautiful..but not too long...
love is like a flower...

the dream is true...

2007-01-07T23:23:00.000+02:00

just close your eyes and get lost inside the colors

15 things i want to d

2007-01-07T23:13:00.000+02:00

1. to make someone happy
2.to make my walking trip around my country
3. to sleep under spring sky in open air
4. to step without shoes into fresh snow
5. to find the plece where i belonge to
6. to save an animal or just to help somebody to make his dream true
7. to help to somebody who need a help
8. To go to India for 1 moth
9. To eat all the day icecream with u...my special " I"
10. to see where the oceans get together
11. to travel with balloon over Africa
12. to spend the whole day in chocolate shop in Belgum
13. to swim with dolphins in Hawaii
14. to 14. get lost in Marocoo and Moscow
15. to go to pearl jam's concert

my life????

2007-01-06T21:23:00.000+02:00

What is right to do...what step should i make..???
To walk aginst the blood or next to it....? Why some people are so selfish ..and other too kind?
Why the good people had hard life and the bad easy one? Why some doesn't really realise that they hurt somebody even take this person to the hospital....
Is the humanity make us better people and happy..or just make us weak and let the other to walk over us? If the only reason to be good is the Eden...then why the way we are walking on is like hell? What is the good point to change something when in the other moment everything get down in a small spots...

the book

2007-01-05T22:13:00.000+02:00

there is something strange around me ..really wiered things happaning since i started to read my book..."kafka on the beach"

Caffee?

2006-11-07T23:15:00.000+02:00

I think i'm addicted to caffee..is it bad? or is it good?

Did You Forget Yourself?

2006-11-06T17:08:00.000+02:00

You run to buy the newspaper early in the morning..
You run to catch a taxi...
You run to change your bus...
You run during your beak to buy some food...
You run because the hot coffee burnes your fingers...
You run because it rains and it freezes your bones...
You run to hide from somebody...
You run when you are late...
You run to catch a friend ...
You run just for sport...
You un because you are happy...
You run to walk your dogs...
You run to save our life...
You run to catch the sell..
Is this our life? Always hurry and always late....
I wish it was different

before sleep

2006-10-16T00:16:00.000+03:00

A cup of hot milk with honey and cinamon...that's a good way to say good night...

Unspoken words

2006-10-14T13:11:00.000+03:00

A thousand of flowers veils felt over the ground and colored it in yellow and brown...
the various colors of the stones are still untouched until the first snow comes upon...
The sun always give the warm touch that every creature needs...
and it's so special in a cold foggy morning...
like a cup of hot tea that can heat your heart...
warm and comfortable...
How I can forget that feeling..
It always comes in my mind when I'm feeling cold and unwanted...
A friendly smile or hug is like the water, whose taste never change...
Just the feeling after that is different...
Frozen fingers looking for others to be touched...But they are still alone..
Morning kiss...Or just a dream is that all I care...
Or it all will fit with a cup of hot chocolate between my lips.
.. soft and sweet like life..

the people

2006-10-04T23:42:00.000+03:00

The people we meet...
There are in the bus..or in the public taxi..
They are in your class or just behind the corner....
They are your neighbours...or your relatives...
Or just some strangers you met once and will never meet again..
They are the one you expect and waithing for awake untill late..
Or they are those who we hate..
Or just think we hate, but actually we don't....
Those people we watch on the tv...or just listen to on the radio...
The people are like colors..
Everybody wear something that is identical for him/her....
Choose a color...?
What is it?
Think again..
Are you sure you want to be who you are
...and you are not afraid that u don't want to change?
smiles & rainbows

Snails

2006-08-29T21:20:00.000+03:00

After the rain, many snails crawl on the roads.
When it becomes dark nobody can see them.
They have been smashed by the people walking by...
So sad...
But i'm one of those snail killers...

Tanita Tikaram lyrics - Light Up The World

2006-08-15T11:03:00.000+03:00

Thinking back, could I feel much older?
and my stance couldn't feel much colder
Can they tell what I'm getting over now?
in the park I've seen you walking And in my dreams
I've heard you talking can they tell what
I'm getting over now?
'Cos you light up the world yeah,
you light up the world In this time,
and times to come I do not know
if your hopes have won
I do not care where you think you'll find it and
I do not care if I fall behind Thinking back
I was so much younger thinking back you were so much more tender Thinking back, will it make me hunger now?
For you, light up the world Yeah you,
light up the world Well there's something about the girl Yeah there's something about her world
There's something for everyone
Have you found yourself in the frame of mind?
Where no-one can be too kind And there's so little lost
There must be a life to trust there And if I try I know
I'll be there To hold, and be mine

Confused!

2006-08-13T22:48:00.000+03:00

Have you ever felt like you are an non-belong ?
I mean like An non-belong to the life you obtain. Maybe its unclear, so i will try to explain...
Feelings like you talk to somebody, but in the end you don't talk to nobody...
You hugged somebody, but there is no one...
You eat alot and in the end you are still starving...
You drink so much water, but it makes you more and more thirsty...
You walk on the streets and make some funny faces to the people around, but nobody sees you..
You smile and there isn't a smile back..
You run so fast to catch the bus but instead of that you are runing back....
You have 4 lives or more but in the end you have nothing...

...

rotten Apple

2006-06-11T22:22:00.000+03:00

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Alice In Chains - Rotten Apple
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Ignorance is spoken
Spoken
Confidence is broken
Broken

Sustenance is stolen
Stolen
Arrogance is potent
What I see is unreal

I've written my own part
Eat of the apple, so young
I'm crawling back to start
Hey Ah Na Na
A romance is fallen
Fallen

I repent tomorrow
Tomorrow

Is suspended my sorrow
Sorrow

Recommend you borrow

Roads Lyrics.

2006-06-04T22:49:00.000+03:00

Roads by Portishead
_____

Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.

How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.

Storm,
In the morning light,
I feel,
No more can I say,
Frozen to myself.

I got nobody on my side,
And surely that ain't right,
Surely that ain't right.

Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.

How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.

How can it feel this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.

Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.

How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.

Life...

2006-06-01T22:48:00.000+03:00

Life is like a piece of paper under the rain..so small and so soft...so easy to be destroyed and so easy to be made...

friends are our reflection...

2006-05-22T15:34:00.000+03:00

some pictures that i like to share

2006-05-18T22:10:00.000+03:00

State of Love and Trust....

2006-05-08T15:44:00.000+03:00

"State of love and trust" is Pearl Jam song...I'm addicted to this song for long long time, and I listen to the voices in my hear.

" Sin still plays and preaches, but to have an empty court, uh huh
And the signs are passin`, grip the wheel, can`t read it
Sacrifice receiving the smell that`s on my hands ... hands, yeah
And I listen for the voice inside my head
Nothin`, I`ll do this one myself

Lay her down as priest does, Should the lord be accountin`
Will be in my honour, make it pain, painfully quick, uh huh
Promises are whispered in the age of darkness
Want to be enlightened like I want to be told the end ... end, yeah
And the barrel stays aimed a-directly at my head
Oh, help me, help me from myself
And I listen yeah, from both sides of the bed
Nothin`, I`ll do this one myself "

All I wanted to say today..is that today will never be today again it will be tomorrow... On the next day and it will be yesterday on the previous day..So just enjoy your today, because it will never be the same...
Smiles and Peace...

lyrics..

2006-04-29T08:12:00.000+03:00

"How Does It Feel"

I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know that i can breathe
I don't need much of anything
But suddenly, suddenly
I am small and the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
But suddenly, suddenly
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel?
I'm young, and I am free
But I get tired, and I get weak
I get lost, and I can't sleep
But suddenly, suddenly

you don't realize that you love someone untill you don't lose him...

2006-04-28T22:34:00.001+03:00

I look for you here and there but i see
nothing,
I wait for you but you will never
come.
I'm sitting in the window, staring at the passing people by
but they are not you,
I had a dream but then i woke up and i saw you are not around
like you used to be,
Since you died , you left me so empty,
so many words unspoken inside me, so many things undone,
since you died i'm changed, i lost my way, i lost myself, i lost my faith.
There are 3 months passed...but it was like yesterday when i had a call with the bad news ...For all that time i passed many test, some i took and some i felt....
The child in me died..and i strongly kept is so many years...
But there is a thing that bothers me so much..why did you left without saying even a word? Everytime i hear the word father is makes me sad...because i have no one who i can call this word...i cry a lot..and i had never cry so much before...
its like myself is painted in black ...i don't know when i will get over all...maybe never... I have so many words inside me..they fills me up and they will explode soon...

the animals... from the the place i work

2006-04-13T12:32:00.000+03:00

to someone i lost...

2006-04-04T01:09:00.000+03:00

He is gone and he left some things behind:
he left his coffee untouched,
his lunch in the half,
his family alone,
his dog homeless,
his cigarete still burning,
his parants unvisit,
his shoes unweared,
his clothes unwashed,
his jaket hanged on the wall,
his pictures in the box of the memory,
his faith behind the sins,
his eyes on his doughter face,
his voice in his children past,
his moves in the middle,
all he left was million unspoken words...
many moments that he will miss and letters
that he will never write... one lost life...

Friendship

2006-03-31T23:20:00.000+03:00

Now I'm sitting and many thoughts are crushing in my mind...The main one is What is the friendship? There is one person(a girl) who I know since I'm studying in the university so its like 5 years ago ..We were together in USA, we were in the same major in the beginning, we used to meet everyday and go together to the library, go to a cafeteria, to sit and talk long time in the university, to go to music stores and bookshops,to eat pizza outside and going to concerts, it was always tree of us (M>M>I) and we were joking and called ourselves trimurts(from Indian mythology-Vishnu, Brahma and Shiva)...

But suddenly something changed. The person I used to know wasn't the same anymore..She found a different things to like, but its normal everybody change...She started to think about different things...To go to different places..Our night phone talkes were not every night, it became once a week, once in a two weeks or once in a month...But its normal , because when you meet new people you change...I'm happy she found what she was looking for...And finally she is who she wants to be...

But there is one thing that makes me sad..And its about how she started to act...I know I'm nobody to say bad things behind people's back...But I'm disappointed of the way how she treats me and talk to me when there are other people around us..She is like ...There is something in me that makes her to be ashame from me..And I'm still the same..The same one with who she used to be a friend...It hurts me, because I can't talk about what I want..All the time I have to think if the things I'm saying or doing are not embarrassing to her...I can't be me..And this is not a friendship to me anymore...Because you accept your friends who are they..Not make them to be who you like they to be... It makes me sad, but what can I do!?

2 weeks life

2006-03-22T21:46:00.000+02:00

Maybe for you its so strange to have homless dogs...but for me here is so normal..its so sad and it hurts me..i'm wonderinf why the people take a dog and after that they throw it like some old and spoiled food...then nobody care what will happaned to that creature..Nobody care that this dog..or any other that they catch on the street and put them in dog-kennel will die in 2 weeks..they will murder them...But why should they care...It hurts me so bad...that i'm helpless ...I will never forget what i saw on the tv...its so easy to smile and to say its so good that it doesn't happaned to me this time...
here are some pictures..because sometimes the words are so powerless ...
just imagine that those creature will be murdered if nobody takes them or look for them...

Everclear- i will Buy You A New Life

2006-03-21T14:08:00.000+02:00

Here is the money that I owe you
So you can pay the bills
I will give you more when I get paid again
I hate those people who love to tell you
"Money is the root of all that kills"
They have never been poor
They have never had the joy of a welfare Christmas
I know we will never look back
You say you wake up crying
Yes and you don't know why
You get up and you go lay down inside my baby's room
I guess i'm doing ok
I moved in with the strangest guy
Can you believe he actually thinks
that I am really alive
I will buy you a garden where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car, perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
Yes I will I know all about that other guy
The handsome man with athletic thighs
I know about all the times before
With that obsessive little rich boy
hey might think you're happy
Yeah maybe for a minute or two
They can't make you laugh
No they can't make you feel the way that I do
I know we can never look back
Will you please let me stay the night No one will ever know

Petra

2006-03-19T22:43:00.000+02:00

An ancient ruined city of Edom in present-day southwest Jordan. It flourished as a trade center and the capital of Nabataea from the 4th century B.C. until its capture by the Romans in A.D. 106. The city was taken by Muslims in the 7th century and by Crusaders in the 12th century. The ruins of the “rose-red city” were discovered in 1812.

Petra (pē'trə) , ancient rock city, in present-day Jordan, known to the Arabs as Wadi Musa for the stream that flows through it. A narrow, winding pass between towering walls leads to the open plain upon which stood the ancient city. The plain is surrounded by hills in which tombs have been carved in the pink sandstone. The site includes some 800 structures, the best known of which is the Khazneh el-Farun (or so-called Pharoah's Treasury), a mausoleum, monument, or temple with a two-story facade and Hellenistic split pediment.

Petra was early occupied by the Edomites and by the Nabataeans (an Arab tribe), who had their capital there from the 4th cent. B.C. until the Roman occupation in A.D. 106. The city is referred to as Sela in the Bible (2 Kings 14.7). It was for many centuries the focal point of a vast caravan trade but declined with the rise of Palmyra; however, it remained a religious center of Arabia. Under the Romans in the 2d and 3d cent. it was included in the province of Arabia Petraea. An early seat of Christianity, it was conquered by the Muslims in the 7th cent. and in the 12th cent. was captured by the Crusaders, who built a citadel there. Petra was unknown to the Western world until its ruins were visited by Johann Burckhardt in 1812.

my birthday....

2006-03-09T12:44:00.000+02:00

it was so cool to listen my fav, band live..but why there are some people who just go to make themselve drunk...why they can't just listen the songs ...why they just go to public places and act like trouble makers...why is it so?

this is the band i'm talking about..i wish you all can hear them and to understand the lyrics they are so cool....

Честита Баба Марта!!!

2006-03-01T10:57:00.001+02:00

The Martenitsa Day!

If you are fortunate enough to visit Plovdiv, Sofia,Varna (or anywhere else in Bulgaria) on the first of March you are certain to notice almost every person decorated with small tokens made from red and white woollen threads. Then from late March to mid-April, you will notice many fruit trees and shrubs decorated with these same tokens. March 1 is the "Baba Marta" day in Bulgaria - on the first of March, and the days following, all people give to each other red-and-white strips or small woollen dolls called Pizho (the male character) and Penda (the female one), also known as Martenitzi. They are so named because they bring the name of March, or in Bulgarian - Mart. According to tradition, Marta (the female variation of the word ?Mart?) is an angry old lady who rapidly changes her mood from bad to good and back again. She is popular all around as Grandmother Marta
(in Bulgarian "Baba Marta").

There are many beliefs and stories regarding the meaning of the red-and-white symbols of the Martenitsas ? the most popular being the following one:

More than a dozen centuries ago, the proto-Bulgarian ruler Khan Asparukh (also known as Isperikh) left his home in the distant Tibet Mountains in search of fertile land for his people to live on. He passed through many rivers and mountains until he finally reached the lands of the Slavs, who greeted him and his people as dear guests. Slav women, wearing white outfits brought drinks, while the tables were full of foods ? everything that grows on that blessed land. But the Khan was sad and homesick and he missed his mother and his dear sister Kalina. He sat by the huge river and tears ran down hid sunburnt face, while he prayed to gods and the sun for a miracle to happen. And it did happen! A swallow landed on his shoulder and the Khan shared all his sorrow to her. Then the swallow flew away, back to the lands the proto-Bulgarians came from, and with a human voice it told Kalina, the Khan?s sister, that her brother found a new land for his kingdom but he is misses her so much and sends his best feelings?

Kalina was so happy to hear that ? and she decided to send her brother a token that she had got the news. She made a small bunch from some green bush, she bound it with a white woollen thread, and made knots at the end of the thread as a greeting sign ? and she sent the swallow to take that bunch back to her brother. The swallow flew fast as lightning and very soon it landed on the Khan?s shoulder again. But due to the long flight his wing was hurt and some blood drops dyed the white woollen thread. The Khan was so happy to see the green bunch, he got his sister?s greeting by the knots she had made, and so he pinned the bunch on his chest. The Khan ordered his men each to put a small bunch of twisted red-and-white thread on that day each year ? for health and heavenly blessing. That happened on the first of March and remained as a tradition ever since.

As the Bulgarian tradition goes, each morning on the first of March, a fire has to be started in the yard, with plenty of smoke. Then everyone living in the house jumps over the fire three times, facing the rising sun, to clean off any evil spirits and keep away all illnesses. Then the mistress of the house takes out some red clothes and fabrics and flings them on tree-branches and on the fence. Then she decorates the young kids and the newborn animals with Martenitzas she prepared herself from woollen or cotton threads.

The traditional Bulgarian Martenitzas had various additional objects, woven into them ? coins, dry garlic cloves, blue beads, iron rings, hairs of horse?s tail, snails? shells ? therefore people always believed the Martenitzas to be special kinds of tokens, keeping all the evil spirits away. According to oldest traditions, children are supposed to carry the Martenitzas on their right wrist, on the neck (as a necklace) or on their chest, while the young unmarried or the newly wed women ? on their neck or woven into their hair. Men are allowed to carry their Martenitzas over their left elbow or over their left ankle (i.e. to remain unseen!), while in some regions they put them into their left shoes, under the heel ? due to the belief that if someone saw them with a martenitza tied on their wrist, then their masculinity could be tied too...

The traditions and beliefs remained all through the centuries, although today Bulgarians also wear the red-and-white tokens with the belief to please Baba Marta - so she will not make us cold. In doing so, we are expressing the hope that the warm spring will come as soon as possible. Once we have our martenitzas, which we pin on our clothing or wear tied on our wrists (it is usually the right wrist we put the martenitzas on), we keep them until we see some sign of spring - such as a stork, crane or swallow, or a blossoming tree. Only after seeing that sign do we remove the martenitzas, because then we know that spring has truly arrived. In different parts of the country, however, the belief differs somewhat. After seeing a stork, most will tie their Martenitzas on a fruit tree, and they make a wish, which is believed to always happen!

lost....

2006-02-15T21:41:00.000+02:00

sometimes i feel my self so weak..so dirty from inside so hopeless...i'm too lost to find the way out from my shell...i want so much to help my brother to leave his bad freinds to pay attention more for his school..to leave the alcohol...to change his life..to reborn his faith....to respect our mom...
but i can't... i'm just another stupid human who trying to tell him what to do...
(that's the way how he thinks)
Ya Allah..!!!
sometimes..as hardest i try..as faster i loose him...
I know that Allah wants this...and that's all i can say....

flu

2006-02-14T12:47:00.000+02:00

The seasonal flu kills about 36,000 people every year and sends 200,000 to the hospital, according to the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. But most of those cases involve people who are elderly, very young or weakened by another condition.

For most sufferers -- between 5 and 20 percent of the population every year -- the flu brings fever, headaches, fatigue, aches and pains, stomach distress and other symptoms that make life miserable for days.

A pandemic flu outbreak would be an entirely different problem.

The flu virus mutates frequently and sometimes a new strain emerges that humans have not been exposed to. If the strain spreads easily between humans, it can cause widespread death and overwhelm global health resources.

"Unlike seasonal flu, most people have not built up resistance to it. And unlike seasonal flu, it can kill those who are young and healthy, as well as those who are frail and sick," President Bush said in a November 1 speech announcing a $7.1 billion plan to prepare for a possible pandemic. "At this moment, there is no pandemic influenza in the United States or the world. But if history is our guide, there's reason to be concerned."

Three influenza pandemics swept the globe in the 20th century. The worst, in 1918-19, killed 20 million to 50 million people, according to the CDC, and triggered an international panic. (Witness to 1918 flu)

Health officials stress that there is no evidence of a pandemic flu outbreak anywhere in the world, but say that the avian flu that has spread across Asia and Europe is a cause for concern.

The H5N1 strain of the avian flu has infected 126 people and killed 64 since 2003, according to the World Health Organization. It does not spread easily between humans -- most of the cases have been contracted by handling infected poultry.

The fear is that the H5N1 will mutate, or that it will combine with another strain of influenza and become more contagious, according to the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services plan for responding to a possible pandemic.

HHS Secretary Mike Leavitt told CNN that there was no way to know if the bird flu would become a pandemic, but said it was only a matter of time before a strain of flu virus did.

He said that such an outbreak would be a natural disaster of unique proportions.

"It can happen in 5,000 different communities around the world at the same time. No central place can manage all of those difficulties and so local communities need to be ready, and part of the president's plan is to assure that they are," Leavitt said.
Flu season unpredictable

So far this season, flu activity has been relatively low, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Experts say it's too early to tell how bad the season will be.

"Until we begin to see epidemic spread in some parts of the country, we're not really going to be able to say a whole lot about the season, except that it's not going to be extremely early," said Arnold S. Monto, a professor of epidemiology at the University of Michigan.

He said that a typical flu season starts around Thanksgiving and peaks around Christmas, though it can be earlier or later.

"The only thing we can predict with certainty about flu is that it's unpredictable," said CDC Director Julie Gerberding. "We just can't tell at the beginning of the season, like we are now, how bad it's going to be and when it's going to peak."

Gerberding said that immunization is the biggest thing that people can do to protect themselves from the disease, combined with simple hygiene.

"It's ...very important to keep your hands clean, to wash your hands frequently so that you're not picking it up inadvertently, and try not to touch your eyes or your mouth," she said. "I know that's hard, but it's kind of good old-fashioned respiratory hygiene."

Monto said that some parts of the country have not yet gotten the vaccine, but said that there should be enough doses for everyone who wants them.

"You don't have to get it in November, if there's no flu around you, you can continue to get it in December or even into January, and by that time there should be plenty of vaccine available," he said.
Pandemic plan

A key element of the president's flu plan is the allocation of $2.8 billion to fund a "crash program" to accelerate the development of vaccines. (Is the United States prepared?)

The current system relies on a process developed in the 1950s to grow the vaccine in billions of chicken eggs.

Scientists must wait until a new strain emerges to create a vaccine, so a faster system would have the potential to save many lives.

The plan calls for spending $1 billion to stockpile anti-viral drugs -- such as Tamiflu and Relenza -- to protect first-responders and $583 million for "pandemic preparedness." That would include $100 million for states to make plans.

It also calls for $251 million to help other countries train medical personnel and improve their capacity to detect and contain outbreaks.

He sent me this song ...

2006-02-09T12:03:00.000+02:00

he sent me this song today and i love it..it has so much from hm in it...
something so sad and so beautiful
...so peaceful and so strong..
something so real and so unreal...

Falling downward, your face I see
Falling downward, you can see me
In this madness I reach out for your hand
Two souls in union, spiralling to the ground
Child of Morpheus
Take me to your sweet euphoria
Child of Morpheus
Hold me in my dreams
Tranquil angel
Falling with no fear of landing
Child of Morpheus
Close my eyes for me
I’ve touched your beauty, tasted your poison brew
You’ve held me closer than any man could do
Now come, sweet Morpheus, there’s lands we’ve yet to see
Unfold your comforting arms, and we’ll fall endlessly
How I love you, Morpheus, my soul has ached for you
You gave me comfort while life was so cruel
Your time is precious, I’ll waste not what you share
Let’s fall again now, as far as we would dare

beautiful by India Arie

2006-02-08T17:45:00.000+02:00

India Arie

The time is right
I'm gonna pack my bags
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountain
I see the bright sun shinning
And I want to live inside the glow
I wanna go to place where
I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna got to a place time has consequence oh yeah
The sky opens to my prayers
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
Please understand that it not that I don't care
But right know these wall are closing in on me
I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place were
I can breathe
I wanna go to place were
I can hold the intangible
And let of the pain with all my might
I wanna go to a place where
I am suspended in ecstasy
Some where between dark and light
Where wrong becomes right...

sometimes...

2006-02-07T10:16:00.000+02:00

Sometimes I look in my past and I see nothing more then white spots, hundred, thousand, millions...Small white spots that sometimes became together and sometimes separate...Inside them there are hidden fear, sorrow,nightmares, dreams, mistakes, happy and sad thoughts, billion words... Wrong steps...Buried deep inside the past years...Those small circle things is me..All are me..All took the time with them and they have its scars....I'm so afraid to touch them, because they are my memories, my unfulfilled dreams and lost expectations, unspoken words... I'm just walking so slowly around them, every stem I make is half, by mending my pace my hearth starting to beat faster. I'm keep walking and they are still moving around me..When I close my eyes I still see them moving...There is no room to hide from them...No place to escape...I can see through them and they can see through me...I can see myself inside them , every peace is me,every past is me , every move is me...

orange

2006-01-30T15:53:00.000+02:00

everything is orange...
when the sun goes down...

Build You Up

2006-01-28T12:15:00.000+02:00

Nelly furtado
Build you up

Baby don't believe it
Oh, it's in your eyes
I can see the weakness
You don't have to hide
I can take you under
Under my wing
cause your voice gives me a song
That i love to sing

Baby, they build you up
Only to tear you down
Don't give up
Baby don't believe it, baby don't believe it

Baby they build you up
Only to tear you down
Baby don't believe it, baby don't believe it
Oh, it's good for nothing

You were just a child
Ready to explore
And everything you saw
Looked like an open door

A place you can remember
You'd love to go back
But you can't even comprehend
That it's all in the past

Baby they build you up
Only to tear you down
Baby don't believe it, baby don't believe it
Oh, it's good for nothing

Baby they build you up
Only to tear you down
Baby don't believe it, baby don't believe it
Oh, it's good for nothing

Put your heart in my hands and i won't hurt you
Put your heart in my hands
I promise not to

I'll lift you up, you'll fly away, I'll lift you up, lift you up
I'll never build you up, only to tear you down
Baby just believe it, baby just believe it, it's good for something
I'll never build you up, only to tear you down, oh it's good for nothing
And i love you the way you are

A flower for him.

2006-01-25T17:19:00.000+02:00

My father died yesterday. Today was his funeral so this flower is for him...

solar system in the order how is it..upside down

2006-01-16T23:11:00.000+02:00

Rumi, poetry

2006-01-14T15:19:00.000+02:00

"I'll fly like a pigeon from your hand." "If you fly, you deserve to be Chained with my grief," he answered. I said, "I am tired and weak, Dying from your love." "Death would be an honor for you," he said, "If you die with My love."
* * * * *
I see an eye in every fortune, And a fortune sits in every eye. Oh, cross-eyed one, If you see two in one, I only see one in two. I cannot sleep when I am with you Because of your love. I cannot sleep without you Because of my screaming and yelling. I am awake on both night, But what a difference in between.
* * * * *

You are the water. We are the plants. You are teh King. We are the poor. You are the one who talks. We are the echoes. You are the one searching. Why don't you come to all of us once?

Bush

2006-01-10T22:51:00.000+02:00

40 miles from the sun
Lyrics

There is nowhere left to hide
There is nothing to be done
No people to be saved
No pets we've never names
40 miles from the sun

As darkness craves the mind
We come undone without our pride
No time on the earth to come
All the pleasures just begun
40 miles from the sun

In our coats beneath the layers

Wash my skin of all the hate
We should sleep late
Everything just kind of grates
40 miles from the sun
40 miles from the sun
40 miles from the sun

I need to lose to make it right
I'll confront the stars tonight
I will babble I will bite
You will never know how much you shine
40 miles from the sun
40 miles from the sun
40 miles from the sun

Eid Mubarak

2006-01-10T11:27:00.000+02:00

What does it cost...

2006-01-09T10:56:00.000+02:00

What does it cost....
To hear your favourite song;
To watch a movie that will turn your world upside down;
To have a snow flakes on your nose or to make an angels on it,
To have just another wonderful sunny day;
To have a cup of hot tea in the cold morning;
A hug from a friend who you didn't see for a long time
Or just a phone call when you are lonely and sad...
A smile from a stranger in the street...
Or just the yellow color of the autumn ...
Aroma of the coffee...
The taste of the dark chocolate...
To light a candle in the dark night...
The smell of just mowed grass....
To drink the cocoa in a small sips...
.................................................................

Maeby for you it is nothing...but for me it is everything.....

Look At Me Now Lyrics

2006-01-06T10:53:00.000+02:00

Tell me who you see When you look in my eyes Yeah it's really me That you don't recognize I almost believed you and gave up When you wrote me off You almost succeeded completely Till somehow I rescued the faith that I lost Whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do How you gonna get me to me now Never understood, no you never could Never really knew me no how You kicked on me when I was down It's funny how things come around Cause look at me now Cause look at me now Hey it's only money And the trappings of fame But now all of a sudden You remember my name You're doing you best to convince me that it's only words But I'll never forget how you hurt me And now that finally the tables have turned Whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do How you gonna get me to me now Never understood, no you never could Never really knew me no how You kicked on me when I was down It's funny how things come around Cause look at me now Look at me now Never thought I could Never thought I would You thought I was beet to the ground It's funny how things have turned out Everything's all turned around
by Dakota Moon

do you...?

2006-01-04T16:30:00.000+02:00

Do you still belive in fairy tales?
DO U?

sun ...

2006-01-03T22:02:00.000+02:00

sun come out...
i'm waiting for you....

Runing up that hill

2005-12-30T21:27:00.000+02:00

It doesn't hurt me.
Do you want to feel how it feels?
Do you want to know that it doesn't hurt me?
Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making?
It's you and me.
And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
So if only could

Don't want to hurt thee,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware I'm tearing you asunder.
Ooh, there is thunder in our hearts.
Is there so much hate for the ones we love?
Oh, tell me, we both matter,
don't we? It's you and me won't be unhappy.

And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill, With no problems.

"C'mon, baby, c'mon darling, Let me steal this moment from you now. C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling, Let's exchange the experience, oh..."

And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill, With no problems.

And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill, With no problems.
And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill, With no problems.

If I only could Be running up that hill With no problems...

rumi ....

2005-12-22T19:29:00.001+02:00

Moving Water When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy. When actions come from another section, the feeling disappears. Don't let others lead you. They may be blind or, worse, vultures. Reach for the rope of God. And what is that? Putting aside self-will. Because of willfulness people sit in jail, the trapped bird's wings are tied, fish sizzle in the skillet. The anger of police is willfulness. You've seen a magistrate inflict visible punishment. Now see the invisible. If you could leave your selfishness, you would see how you've been torturing your soul. We are born and live inside black water in a well. How could we know what an open field of sunlight is? Don't insist on going where you think you want to go. Ask the way to the spring. Your living pieces will form a harmony. There is a moving palace that floats in the air with balconies and clear water flowing through, infinity everywhere, yet contained under a single tent.

2005-12-21T14:51:00.000+02:00

ROUH

2005-12-20T16:25:00.000+02:00

Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul
ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI.
Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul
ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI.
Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul. O’ you who
is living inside my soul ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI. YA A’AYESH JIWAAT ROUHI.
Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul. O’ you who is living inside my soul
ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI. YA A’AYESH JIWAAT ROUHI.
You who is stopping my heart’s beats, you who are the cure for my wounds -
YA IMWAKEF DAKAAT AALBI, YA BALSAM LI-JROUHI.
My eye, eye, eye, eye. I write your name on my forehead. I dedicate to you all my life’s days and years -
A’AIN, A’AIN, A’AIN. A’AIN. BAKTOUB ISMAK A’ALA IJBINI, BAWHIBLAK IYYAM
OMRI IW-KILLI SNEINI.
Melted, , Melted, , Melted Oh father, my heart melted O’ Father --
DAAB, DAAB, DAAB YOUBA. ANA QALBI DAAB YOUBA.
All sufferings are more merciful than mine
KOUL IL-A’AZAB ARHAM MIN A’AZABI.
My darling do not wither away, your absence
making me crazy. In God’s name put my mind at ease about my precious loved ones
HABIBI LA ITGHEIB A’ANNI. GHIYABAK BEY-JANNINNI. BILLAHI TAMINNI A’AN AGHLA AHBAABI.
Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul. O’ you who is living inside my soul --
ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI. YA A’AYESH JIWAAT ROUHI.
You who is stopping my heart’s beats, you who are the cure for my wounds -
YA IMWAKEF DAKAAT AALBI, YA BALSAM LI-JROUHI.
How, How, How are you. I am coming just for your sake. The whole universal without you is not beautiful
KEIF, KEIF, KEIF HAALAK. ANA JAAYEH KIRMAALAK. ELDINYEH BALAK WALLAH MA IBTIHLAALI..
My darling and my heart’s soul, life without you is very hard
HABEEBI IW-YA ROUH AALBI, ILA’EISHEH BALAAK SAA’BEH.
I love you. I swear by my god’s life. You are precious
IBHIBBAK WIHYAAT RABBI. INTA GHAALI.
Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul. O’ you who is living inside my soul
ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI. YA A’AYESH JIWAAT ROUHI.
You who is stopping my heart’s beats, you who are the cure for my wounds -
YA-IMWAKEF DAKAAT AALBI, YA BALSAM LI-JROUHI.
Flew away, Flew away, Flew away my brain from my head, my brain flew away ---
TAAR, TAAR, TAAR A’AQLI. MIN RAASI TAAR A’AQLI.
Are you my lover or are you my craziness? -
INTA HABEEBI WALLA INTA IJNOUNI.
My darling with a high forehead. In you, I see myself and there is nothing so precious for you O’ precious one. You are my eyes
HABEEBI IW-YA JBEEN A’ALI. ANA FEEK IBSHOUF HAALI. MA IBYIGHLA A’ALAIK GHAALI. INTA IA’YOUNI.
Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul
ROUH, ROUH, ROUH, ROUHI.
O’ you who is living inside my soul --
YA A’AYESH JIWAAT ROUHI.
My eye, eye, eye, eye. I write your name on my forehead. I dedicate to you all my life’s days and years
A’AIN, A’AIN, A’AIN. A’AIN. BAKTOUB ISMAK A’ALA IJBINI, BAWHIBLAK IYYAM OMRI IW-KILLI ISNEINI.
Soul, Soul, Soul, Soul of my soul

Timeline: Bulgarian Medics' Trial in Libya

2005-12-15T14:08:00.000+02:00

Timeline: Bulgarian Medics' Trial in Libya

For the Record: 15 November 2005, Tuesday.
1998
Health professionals from the Benghazi Children's Hospital informed the Bulgarian Embassy that Bulgarians Sevda Yablanska and Snezhana Dimitrova have been detained by the Libyan authorities. Daily interrogations with Bulgarian medical workers were also conducted.

1999
February 10. 23 Bulgarian health professionals working at the Benghazi hospital went missing, 17 of them were released.
February 18. The Embassy in Tripoli officially informed of "precautionary measures" having been taken against several Bulgarian doctors and nurses working at the Benghazi Children's Hospital.

2000
January. The Embassy in Tripoli informed that the six Bulgarians will probably be tried.

2002
February 4. The medics were accommodated in a house under guard. After the medics were moved from the Libyan prison Judeyda, they were practically in non-prison conditions.

February 17. The case was downgraded by a judge. The medics had faced trial in a people's court in Libya, which is reserved for cases that allegedly threaten state security or involves acts of sabotage. The case is sent to the prosecutor's office. They now faced a criminal court, which carries potentially lighter sentences.

March 22. The medics in Libya replaced their Bulgarian lawyer Vladimir Sheytanov with Plamen Yalnuzov.

In the meantime Libya arrests some 20 people, who allegedly tortured the Bulgarians.

2003
September 3. Renowned microbiologist Vittorio Collizi testified in favor of the Bulgarian defendants in Libya's HIV case. The discoverer of the HIV virus, Prof. Luc Montaigner answered affirmatively the questions of the defense in favor of the six Bulgarian medics. Montaigner has reiterated many times the conclusions of the report he had compiled on the case together with colleague microbiologist Vittorio Collizi at a commission of the Libyan state. According to the report, the HIV infection, which the Bulgarians have been accused of, started at the Al-Fatah hospital in Benghazi as early as 1997 before the Bulgarians took medical jobs there. He stressed the contamination continued to spread after February 1999 when the accused medics were arrested

September. The civil prosecutor for families of the HIV-infected children demanded that USD 4 B be paid in damages, a claim totalling around half of Bulgaria's foreign debt. According to the lawyer of the Libyan parents a total of 426 children have been infected with HIV, which makes over USD 10 M in damages per child. The civil prosecutor involved the claim with the principle of equality of the people around the world and drew parallels with the Lockerbie bombing.

October 13. The lawyers of the Bulgarians insisted there were gaps and incoherence in the indictment as well as omissions in the documents used by the prosecution. The civil prosecutors reduced the claim for damages to 15 million Libyan dinars per each child payable straight away "since the affected families are in urgent need of money."

2004
At the beginning of 2004 the team of 12 Libyan doctors rejected the report by Montaigner and Collizi. The Libyan report states that the infection is a result of deliberate actions. It also questions the claims that the Bulgarian medics have been tortured into making confessions.

In the middle of January the European Union urged the Libyan side to drop the charges against the six Bulgarian medics in a demarche to the Libyan government handed by the ambassadors of the UK and the Netherlands.

The charges are unfounded and we hope that the Libyan Government will undertake the necessary steps for the Bulgarians' soon release, US Assistant Secretary of State for European and Eurasian Affairs Robert Bradtke said on February 11.

In March Amnesty International called on the Libyan authorities to take a number of immediate steps to demonstrate commitment to sustained human rights protection. In a memorandum Amnesty urged the adoption of concrete measures to bring both law and practice in Libya fully into compliance with international human rights standards.

Final pleadings were made on February 16, 2004.

May 6.Benghazi Criminal Court delivered death sentences against the six Bulgarian medics accused of deliberately infecting 426 Libyan children with HIV, the virus that causes AIDS. Zdravko Georgiev, one of the Bulgarian defendants in the HIV trial in Libya, has been released from prison. He has not been sentenced to death but to four years in prison, a sentence, which he has already served during the investigation and the hearings of the court.

May 7. Foreign Minister Solomon Passy in a statement at the United Nations called for the support of the organization over the Libyan trial.

July 7. Foreign Minister Passy announced that the doctor Zdravko Georgiev's verdict has been appealed.

August 26: Us rightist activist Jesse Jackson visit the nurses in the Tripoli jail.

September 15: Bulgaria's nurses transferred to separate room in the Tripoli prison.

December 5. Libya is ready to discuss the possible repealing of the death sentences of the five Bulgarian nurses but only after Bulgaria offers financial compensations, Libyan Foreign Minister Abdel-Rahman Shalgam was cited as saying.

December 9. Libya will not execute the five Bulgarian nurses and the Palestinian doctor sentenced to death earlier this year for infecting more than 400 children with HIV in 1998, according to a son of the Libyan leader Colonel Muammar Qaddafi. The New York Times reported Seif al-Islam as saying that "no one is going to execute anyone. "

December 16. The relatives of Bulgaria's six HIV trial medics in Libya left for the African country.

December 29. A Benghazi court postponed the hearing of one of the two civil indemnity claims, filed by the families of infected Libyan children in the HIV trial against the Bulgarian medics there. Relatives of the two twin sisters, who died of AIDS, are demanding 10 million Libyan dinars.

2005
January 2. The Swiss Ambassador to Tripoli and his wife visited the five Bulgarian nurses in the Judeyda prison.

January 5. Polish Prime Minister Marek Belka has talked the case of death sentenced foreign medics in Libya, while conferring with host Colonel Muammar Qaddafi in Tripoli. Belka told journalists later he held out hope for a negotiated settlement in the case of five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Libya over charges of deliberately spreading AIDS.

January 18. The five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death have signed a joint claim against the Libyan officers who allegedly had tortured them to extract false confessions.

January 25. The trial against the two Libyan officers who had allegedly tortured the Bulgarian nurses in Libya to extract false confessions was postponed for March 22.

January 30. Serbian President Boris Tadic and Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi have discussed the case of the five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Libya.

February 11.The US Assistant Secretary of State for the Middle East William Burns has urged Libya to free the five Bulgarian nurses on the lingered HIV trial.

February 13.A Southern Libyan court rescheduled for March 20 the hearing of the two civil indemnity claims, filed by families of infected Libyan children in the HIV trial against the Bulgarian medics there.

March 9.Members of the European Parliament have voiced determination for further support to Bulgaria's five convicted nurses in Libya.

March 18.EU Enlargement Commissioner Olli Rehn backed Sofia's attempts to secure the release of five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Libya for deliberate infection of hundreds of children with the AIDS virus.

March 20.A Southern Libyan court has delayed for the third time the hearing of the two civil indemnity claims, filed by families of infected Libyan children in the HIV trial against the Bulgarian medics there.

March 22.The Tripoli court postponed again the hearing of the case against ten Libyans accused of torturing Bulgarian nurses on death row into making confessions.

March 23.Muammar Qaddafi pledged he will not release the Bulgarian nurses on the death row in Libya, snubbing international calls for their freedom.

March 24. Tripoli officially denied Muammar Qaddafi has pledged not to release the Bulgarian nurses on the death row in Libya, as claimed by Wednesday's reports from the Arab League summit in Algiers.

March 25.Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi has invited Bulgaria's President Georgi Parvanov on an official visit to the African country. The invitation was passed to the Bulgarian head- of -state by the Libyan ambassador in Sofia.

March 28.UN Secretary General Kofi Annan expressed his hopes that the hearing of the appeal of the Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Libya will bring good news to the entire Bulgarian nation.
March 29.Libya's Supreme Court is to deliver its judgement on the case with the Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death on May 31. The five-member panel of the Supreme Cassation Court convened Tuesday for the appeal hearing against the death sentences on the five Bulgarian nurses and a Palestinian doctor for allegedly infecting with AIDS more than 400 Libyan children.

More than 50 people gathered in Sofia in front of the Libyan embassy in a vigil organized in support of the five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in the African country.

March 30.Libya's Supreme Cassation Prosecution Office has urged the Supreme Cassation Court to refer the AIDS case against five Bulgarian medics back to the court of Benghazi, according to Bulgarian diplomatic sources in Tripoli.

Libya should improve its human rights and justice record if it wants to start a new course of development, as indicated, according to US Deputy Secretary Robert B. Zoellick.

April 1.A representative of the world Lawyers without Borders organization and an envoy from the French Embassy in Tripoli have been allowed to meet the convicted Bulgarian nurses.

April 7.Bulgarian President Georgi Parvanov has declared readiness to leave for Libya and meet its Revolution Leader and other state officials.

April 12. Libyan medics and security officials, linked to the leader Colonel Muammar Qaddafi, have deliberately caused the AIDS outbreak at a Benghazi children's hospital, according to an anonymous letter, posted at a Libyan oppositionary Internet site.

April 17. World Bank President Paul Wolfowitz offered Washington's assistance in bringing the trial of the Bulgarian medics in Libya to a successful outcome.

April 19. Bulgaria's President Georgi Parvanov has extended an invitation for a tete-a-tete meeting with Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi in the hope to "sort out important issues of bilateral concern".

April 23. Bulgaria's Economy Minister Milko Kovachev left on a two-day working visit to Libya, Ministry officials announced.

April 26. The Tripoli court postponed for May 10 the case against nine Libyan policemen and a doctor accused of torturing Bulgarian nurses on death row into making confessions.

May 7. Seif al-Islam-headed charitable foundation, which is monitoring the trial against the Bulgarian nurses in Libya, announced the number of HIV-infected children, who died at the Benghazi hospital, has reached fifty.

May 10. A criminal court in Libya has adjourned for a fourth time in a row the case against ten Libyan officers facing charges of using torture on Bulgarian medics on trial there to extract tortures.

May 17. A Libyan court has adjourned the trial of nine Libyan policemen and a military physician charged with torturing Bulgarian nurses and a Palestinian doctor to extract confessions.

May 22. Bulgaria's President Georgi Parvanov will leave on a two-day official visit to Libya on May 27, just days before a Libyan court rules on the appeal of five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death for infecting children with HIV.

May 24. А Tripoli court will deliver June 7 its judgment on the case against ten Libyans accused of torturing death-sentenced Bulgarian nurses into making confessions.

May 25. Physicians for Human Rights seeks the immediate and unconditional release of the five Bulgarian nurses and a Palestinian physician sentenced to death in May 2004 on charges of intentionally infecting 426 children with HIV in Benghazi.

A European Commissioner has put up a plea for the release of the Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death before the Libyan authorities. The EU External Relations Commissioner Benita Ferrero-Waldner paid a surprising visit to Tripoli, where she met with Libya's Prime Minister Shukri Ghanim and later with Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi.

May 26. From the visit of Benita Ferrero-Waldner to Tripoli, it has become clear that Libya is looking for an acceptable solution of the case with the Bulgarian nurses there, said Solomon Passy, Bulgaria's foreign minister. The EU Commissioner Ferrero Waldner talked to Passy telling him the results from her meetings with the country's leader Muammar Qaddafi and the Prime Minister Shukri Ghanim.

May 27. Bulgaria's President Georgi Parvanov arrived in the Libyan capital to face at the airport a rally of more than 100 parents and relatives of AIDS-infected children. Libyan leader and his Bulgarian guest talked for over an hour right after the arrival of President Parvanov in Tripoli. Later the same evening there was an official dinner hosted by Muammar Qaddafi. The second meeting of the Bulgarian President Georgi Parvanov and the Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi has been canceled. On Saturday Parvanov visited the five imprisoned Bulgarian nurses, sentenced to death for infecting Libyan children with HIV/AIDS virus.

May 28. The visit of the Bulgarian President to Great Jamahiriya is in line with the two countries ordinary and natural relations which are old and strong, Libya's Foreign Minister Abd al-Rahman Shalgam said at his meeting with the Bulgarian President Georgi Parvanov. We would not accept focusing on five and ignoring the five hundreds, Shalgam said, referring to the case of the Bulgarian medics sentenced to death.

May 30.The trial against the Bulgarian medics remains a key precondition for Libya's ambitions to improve relations with the European Union and join the EU's "Barcelona" trade partnership with Mediterranean rim nations, Bulgaria's foreign minister said. His comment came a day ahead of Tripoli's Supreme Court session on the appeal of the five Bulgarian nurses on death row.

Tension is reaching a breaking point a day before Tripoli's Supreme Court rules on the appeal of the five Bulgarian nurses on death row, said doctor Zdravko Georgiev, the only released Bulgarian convict in the HIV trial.

May 31.Libya will take steps to improve the conditions of living of five Bulgarian nurses and a Palestinian doctor in the Judeyda prison in Tripoli. This emerged on the day when the Supreme Court delayed again its ruling on the death sentences appeals by the medics. Judge Ali al-Allush said the case had been postponed to November 15, but gave no further details.

June1.Washington-based human rights group Physicians for Human Rights slammed as "especially troubling" the decision of the Libyan Supreme Court to delay its ruling on the appeal of the death-sentenced Bulgarians.

Five nurses and a doctor sentenced to death by firing squad in Libya for deliberately infecting hundreds of children with the HIV virus could be spared after diplomatic intervention by the European Union, The Times wrote after Tripoli's supreme court postponed until November 15 an appeal against the sentences against the Bulgarian nurses and a Palestinian doctor.

Libyan TV station Al-Jamahiriya has hosted a 45-min discussion panel on the AIDS trial against five Bulgarian medics and a Palestinian doctor on the death row in Libya.

June 2. Bulgaria's five nurses who are appealing against their death sentences in Libya have called on the Bulgarian government to report regularly on their steps to aiding Libya's HIV-infected children.

June 7.A Tripoli court acquitted Tuesday ten Libyans accused of torturing death-sentenced Bulgarian nurses into making confessions. The defendants - nine Libyan security officers and a doctor - were charged with torturing the nurses to extract confessions that they deliberately infected 426 children with the HIV virus that causes AIDS in a Benghazi hospital.

Bulgarian death-sentenced nurses will appeal the Tuesday ruling of Libyan Supreme Court, acquitting ten police officers, charged with torturing the medics into making confessions.

June 14. The families of the HIV-infected Libyan children have ruled out negotiations over the fate of the five Bulgarian convicts and insist that they are executed. "Faced with the tragedy of our children and the negligence of the world, we insist that the death sentences against the convicts be carried out and will not accept any negotiations, compromises or deals in this case," reads a letter of the families sent to AFP section in Tripoli.

August 23. Bulgaria's new justice minister once again underlined that the state will not meet Libyan demands for "blood money" in order to secure the release of five nurses held since 1999. Minister Petkanov said in an interview for the bTV channel that the nurses are innocent. The new minister vowed that he would work for the release of the five women.

August 24. The envoys of the Council of Europe Parliamentary Assembly (PACE) did not hold a planned meeting with Bulgaria's jailed nurses in Libya. Tony Lloyd and Valerie Clamer are on the last day of a visit to Libya.

August 25. Bulgaria is close to the establishment of a non-governmental organization to help the HIV infected Libyan children. The news was broken by Bulgaria's President Georgi Parvanov, who also said that there is a complete action plan for the release and assistance of the unfairly sentenced Bulgarian nurses in Libya.

September 6. The European Commission moved forward in its efforts to help HIV sufferers in Libya and to assist the five Bulgarian nurses, jailed in the African country. Although EC said that actions undertaken are not connected to its efforts for the release of the five Bulgarian nurses and the Palestinian doctors, experts say that it would certainly have an effect on the trial. EC and the Libyan authorities have agreed to immediately to implement urgent policy advice and technical support to the Libyan health authorities and upgrade the capacity of the Benghazi Centre for Infectious Diseases and Immunology to international standards.

US Senator Richard Lugar, chair of US Senate Committee on Foreign Relations, vowed to work for the release of the five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Libya. Senator Lugar promised to appeal for solidarity with the cause of the nurses, Stanimir Ilchev, MP from Simeon II national Movement, said.

September 12.The international non-government organization "Lawyers without borders" staged a protest in front the Libyan embassy in Paris. The peaceful protest was organized in protest against Tripoli's refusal to allow its representatives access to the trial against the Bulgarian nurses.

October 2. The civil lawsuit against the five jailed Bulgarians in Libya was postponed for December 27. The trial was initiated by the relatives of a young HIV victim. The family say that their child was infected by the Bulgarians, and demand to receive a compensation of almost 12 million US dollars.

October 6.Bulgarian President Georgi Parvanov has conferred on phone with Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi, the presidential administration said. He has informed him about the recently established civil association, including prominent Bulgarian artists, sportsmen, etc. , who pledged to work for strengthening bilateral relations with Libya.

A draft resolution was adopted by the Parliamentary Assembly of the Council of Europe, calling on the Libyan authorities to release the death-sentenced Bulgarian medics and a Palestinian doctor and secure a fair trial.

October 15.A Benghazi court postponed for December 17 the hearing of the second civil indemnity claim, filed by families of infected Libyan children in the HIV trial against five Bulgarian nurses.

October 17.The US has confirmed its unwavering stance that the Bulgarian medics on a death row in Libya should be set free. This was said by US President George W. Bush after conferring with Bulgarian President Georgi Parvanov, for the first time in the White House.

Bulgarian culture activists formed a Union for civil rights defence and honour of the five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Libya.

October 18. Tripoli rejected the appeal of US President George Bush for the release of the five Bulgarian nurses facing the death penalty in Libya after being found guilty of deliberately infecting with HIV/AIDS some 426 children in a Benghazi hospital. Libyan Foreign Minister Abdel Rahman Shalgam rejected the call by US President George Bush for Tripoli to spare the lives of the Bulgarian nurses.

October 19. Russia supports strongly the stance of Bulgarian government on the innocence of the five medics sentenced to death in Libya. Russia's Foreign Affairs Minister Sergey Lavrov has assured Bulgarian Parliamentary Speaker Georgi Pirinski that he will put this issue forward during his upcoming international contacts.

October 20. Bulgaria's President Georgi Parvanov made an apparent attempt to temper Tripoli's rejection of the appeal of US President George Bush for the release of the five Bulgarian nurses facing the death penalty in Libya. There are also positive messages that we get from Libya, President Georgi Parvanov said at the end of his visit to the United States. The Bulgarian head of states expects to see a revival in talks with Tripoli and real actions at the bilateral and multilateral levels.

November 2. Bulgaria remains adamant in its refusal to pay indemnities for the freedom of the Bulgarian defendants in Lybia's HIV trial. Foreign Minister Ivaylo Kalfin commented the publication in the Asharq Al Awsat newspaper, which claimed that Libya is ready to release the nurses should Sofia pay compensation to special fund and a charitable organisation. He said that Bulgaria is part of the EU humanitarian plan aimed at helping Libya deal with the AIDS disaster in Benghazi.

November 3. Over the next few days Bulgaria will witness a decisive intervention by the EU in the nurses' case in Libya, MEP Geoffrey van Orden, Rapporteur for Bulgaria in the European Parliament, told Bulgaria's Foreign Minister Ivaylo Kalfin.

November 6. Libya has offered to spare the lives of five Bulgarian nurses and a Palestinian doctor on death row if the UK hands over the man convicted of the Lockerbie bombing, according to The Sunday Times. Tripoli has told British and US diplomats that it will free the medical staff on a death row if Abdelbaset Ali Mohmed al-Megrahi is allowed to serve the remainder of his life sentence in Libya, the newspaper reported.

November 7. Bulgarian Justice Minister Georgi Petkanov has rejected reports over a deal providing for payment to gain the freedom of Bulgarian medics on a death row in Libya. The trial against the five Bulgarian nurses jailed in Libya has become a political trial, German Spiegel magazine wrote.

November 9. Ahead of the November 15 session of the Libyan Supreme Court that has to decide on the appeal of the death sentences imposed on the five Bulgarian nurses and the Palestinian doctor, the French Le Figaro published an article named "Libya: five Bulgarian nurses hostages of Qaddafi.

November 11. Bulgarian-born singer Sylvie Vartan called for mobilization of the support for the five Bulgarian nurses and the Palestinian doctor sentenced to death in Libya. Vartan explained that she had been deeply touched by the faith of the six. These people should be freed or at least subjected to a fair trial, she claimed.

The European Union (EU) and the US are ready to pay for the release of the five Bulgarian nurses sentenced to death in Tripoli, the former Libyan Justice Minister, now Libyan Ambassador in London Muhammad Al-Zaway said in an interview for BBC.

If the confessions of Bulgarian medics on a death row were extracted by torture, this fact makes those confessions void, Libyan leader Muammar Qaddafi told CNN. As quoted by Bulgarian media, the Libyan leader stated, however, that the final decision is not at his discretion, but at the hands of the Libyan court.

November 12. A Libyan newspaper has said that there had been secret talks on the fate of Bulgaria's nurses in Libya, but negotiations failed. Libya Today was cited as saying that Libyan, Bulgarian and British officials were holding secret talks to resolve the crisis. After Bulgaria refused to pay compensations to the HIV victims involved in the trial, the dialogue was frozen, the report has said, as cited by Bulgarian media.

Shadow Of The Sun Lyrics

2005-12-14T15:26:00.000+02:00

Shadow Of The Sun Lyrics
By AudioSlave
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Once upon a time
I was on a mind to lay your burden down
And leave you where you stood
You believed I could
You’d seen it done before
I could read your thoughts
And tell you what you saw
And never say a word
But now that is gone
Over with and done
And never to return

I can tell you why
People die alone
I can tell you why
The shadow on the sun

Staring at the loss
Looking for the cause
And never really sure
Nothing but a hole
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned

I can tell you why
People go insane
I can show you how
You could do the same
I can tell you why
The end will never come
I can tell you on
The shadow on the sun

Shapes of every size
Move behind my eyes
Doors inside my head
Bolted from within
Every drop of flame
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who lived inside my skin
Shadow on the sun

The things that i'm waitng for...

2005-12-12T12:54:00.000+02:00

Today, the same day like it was yesterday...and even like the day before that....Sometimes i'm opening my eyes and i'm asking myself...am i alive? Is this what i was dreaming for? For what i was waiting for? I know the answer is "NO"...all my life i wanted t do something...i wanted to help somebody....but how...? How i can do all that if i can't even help to myself to change my own life? I know that the dreams are made to be untouched..and unreal...and this true makes me feel so weak...But i will keep waiting for them..to get closer to me...

misterious world

2005-12-11T19:02:00.002+02:00

Time of Your Life By Green Day

2005-12-09T11:15:00.001+02:00

Another turning point A fork stuck in the road Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go. So make the best of this test and don't ask why. It's not a question but a lesson learned in time. It's something unpredictable but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life. So take the photographs and still frames in your mind. Hang it on a shelf In good health and good time. Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial. For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. It's something unpredictable but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life. It's something unpredictable but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life. It's something unpredictable but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life.

istambul..or ...

2005-12-05T12:45:00.000+02:00

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Istanbul was formerly known as Byzantion (Byzantium in Latin), and this is the origin of the term we use today. It is not known with any certainty where the name 'Byzantion' came from, and it is quite clear that the legends that arose at later periods did not reflect the truth. It has been noted that 'Byzant', which is the root of the word 'Byzantion' greatly resembles many of the place names existing in Entail during the third century. Although it can be accepted that the 'ion' suffix is associated with the Phrygians, who arrived with the Aegean migrations, the 'nt' on the end of the root 'Byzant' can also be found in the ancient local languages of Entail. Throughout the Early Ages the name 'Byzantion', which forms the core of the former name of Istanbul, was used. After the city had been re-founded in 330 AD by Constantine I (and this was towards the end of the Roman, Empire), it was referred to as 'Deutera Rome', or the second Rome', and also as 'Nea Rome', which means 'New Rome'. Then the name of its founder was taken as the basis, and the name 'Konstantinoupolis' adopted, which was the source of all the western names for the city. The Germans refer to Istanbul as 'Konstantinopel', the French and the British as 'Constantinople' and the Italians as 'Constantinopoli'. Although the official name of the city has, ever since the establishment of the Republic, been 'Istanbul' and great sensitivity shown on this subject, Europe resists the adoption of the name 'Istanbul'. It is not known with any certainty where the name 'Istanbul' came from. According to an opinion that has existed for many years, the Byzantines did not refer to the city by its actual name, but, because of it size, simply as 'Polis' (the City), and when they wanted to say 'to the City', they said 'eist enpolin' (is-tin-polin), which was the origin of the name 'Istanbul'. Recent research has shown that the name 'Istanbul' was used if not during the Byzantine period, at least during the 11th century and that the Turks knew the city by this name. Istanbul has had other names at various times but none of them was used widely or for any great length of time. During the Turkish period the names 'Dersaadet' and 'Deraliye' were used (and these were adjectival more than anything else), and if official correspondence and on coins the Turkish transcription of 'Konstantinoupolis', 'Konstantiniye' was used, Although the use of the name 'Konstantiniye' was prohibited at one time during the Ottoman period by Sultan Mustafa III, its use continued, to be abandoned during the republican period.

Bulgarian style,and this is not all

2005-11-29T08:21:00.000+02:00

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The Shams

2005-11-25T19:07:00.000+02:00

Waalshshamsi waduhaha

Waalqamari itha talaha
Waalnnahari itha jallaha
Waallayli itha yaghshaha
Waalssama-i wama banaha
Waal-ardi wama tahaha
Wanafsin wama sawwaha
Faalhamaha fujooraha wataqwaha
Qad aflaha man zakkaha
Waqad khaba man dassaha
Kaththabat thamoodu bitaghwaha
Ithi inbaAAatha ashqaha
Faqala lahum rasoolu Allahi naqataAllahi wasuqyaha
Fakaththaboohu faAAaqaroohafadamdama AAalayhim rabbuhum bithanbihim fasawwaha
Wala yakhafu AAuqbaha

Falling Back.

2005-11-23T15:02:00.000+02:00

I can't stop myself from callin' Callin' out your name I can't stop myself from fallin' Fallin' back again Dark like the shady corners Inside a violin Hot like to burn my lips I know I can't win I tried to quit you but I'm too weak Wakin' up without you I can hardly speak at all Funny how my favorite shirt Smells more like you than me Bitter traces left behind Stains no one can see You're gonna put me in an early grave I know I'm your slave whenever you call I can't stop myself from callin' Callin' out your name I can't stop myself from fallin' Fallin' back again

Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again

clear mind

2005-11-23T14:40:00.000+02:00

loneliness

2005-11-23T14:38:00.000+02:00

...following her path, no matter that she never even think that will be that way...living her life, life she never dream of...losing her faith, faith she never had one...seaking her family..family she never had...

what if....

2005-11-22T15:21:00.000+02:00

pure truth....but we make it dirty like everything we touch....

nothing inside

2005-11-19T21:57:00.000+02:00

i just see and feel nothing...just the snow outside is so white..i wish i was like it..