15.02.2006 г.

lost....


sometimes i feel my self so weak..so dirty from inside so hopeless...i'm too lost to find the way out from my shell...i want so much to help my brother to leave his bad freinds to pay attention more for his school..to leave the alcohol...to change his life..to reborn his faith....to respect our mom...
but i can't... i'm just another stupid human who trying to tell him what to do...

(that's the way how he thinks)

Ya Allah..!!!
sometimes..as hardest i try..as faster i loose him...
I know that Allah wants this...and that's all i can say....


14.02.2006 г.

flu




The seasonal flu kills about 36,000 people every year and sends 200,000 to the hospital, according to the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. But most of those cases involve people who are elderly, very young or weakened by another condition.

For most sufferers -- between 5 and 20 percent of the population every year -- the flu brings fever, headaches, fatigue, aches and pains, stomach distress and other symptoms that make life miserable for days.

A pandemic flu outbreak would be an entirely different problem.

The flu virus mutates frequently and sometimes a new strain emerges that humans have not been exposed to. If the strain spreads easily between humans, it can cause widespread death and overwhelm global health resources.

"Unlike seasonal flu, most people have not built up resistance to it. And unlike seasonal flu, it can kill those who are young and healthy, as well as those who are frail and sick," President Bush said in a November 1 speech announcing a $7.1 billion plan to prepare for a possible pandemic. "At this moment, there is no pandemic influenza in the United States or the world. But if history is our guide, there's reason to be concerned."

Three influenza pandemics swept the globe in the 20th century. The worst, in 1918-19, killed 20 million to 50 million people, according to the CDC, and triggered an international panic. (Witness to 1918 flu)

Health officials stress that there is no evidence of a pandemic flu outbreak anywhere in the world, but say that the avian flu that has spread across Asia and Europe is a cause for concern.

The H5N1 strain of the avian flu has infected 126 people and killed 64 since 2003, according to the World Health Organization. It does not spread easily between humans -- most of the cases have been contracted by handling infected poultry.

The fear is that the H5N1 will mutate, or that it will combine with another strain of influenza and become more contagious, according to the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services plan for responding to a possible pandemic.

HHS Secretary Mike Leavitt told CNN that there was no way to know if the bird flu would become a pandemic, but said it was only a matter of time before a strain of flu virus did.

He said that such an outbreak would be a natural disaster of unique proportions.

"It can happen in 5,000 different communities around the world at the same time. No central place can manage all of those difficulties and so local communities need to be ready, and part of the president's plan is to assure that they are," Leavitt said.
Flu season unpredictable

So far this season, flu activity has been relatively low, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Experts say it's too early to tell how bad the season will be.

"Until we begin to see epidemic spread in some parts of the country, we're not really going to be able to say a whole lot about the season, except that it's not going to be extremely early," said Arnold S. Monto, a professor of epidemiology at the University of Michigan.

He said that a typical flu season starts around Thanksgiving and peaks around Christmas, though it can be earlier or later.

"The only thing we can predict with certainty about flu is that it's unpredictable," said CDC Director Julie Gerberding. "We just can't tell at the beginning of the season, like we are now, how bad it's going to be and when it's going to peak."

Gerberding said that immunization is the biggest thing that people can do to protect themselves from the disease, combined with simple hygiene.

"It's ...very important to keep your hands clean, to wash your hands frequently so that you're not picking it up inadvertently, and try not to touch your eyes or your mouth," she said. "I know that's hard, but it's kind of good old-fashioned respiratory hygiene."

Monto said that some parts of the country have not yet gotten the vaccine, but said that there should be enough doses for everyone who wants them.

"You don't have to get it in November, if there's no flu around you, you can continue to get it in December or even into January, and by that time there should be plenty of vaccine available," he said.
Pandemic plan

A key element of the president's flu plan is the allocation of $2.8 billion to fund a "crash program" to accelerate the development of vaccines. (Is the United States prepared?)

The current system relies on a process developed in the 1950s to grow the vaccine in billions of chicken eggs.

Scientists must wait until a new strain emerges to create a vaccine, so a faster system would have the potential to save many lives.

The plan calls for spending $1 billion to stockpile anti-viral drugs -- such as Tamiflu and Relenza -- to protect first-responders and $583 million for "pandemic preparedness." That would include $100 million for states to make plans.

It also calls for $251 million to help other countries train medical personnel and improve their capacity to detect and contain outbreaks.

9.02.2006 г.

He sent me this song ...



he sent me this song today and i love it..it has so much from hm in it...
something so sad and so beautiful
...so peaceful and so strong..
something so real and so unreal...


Falling downward, your face I see
Falling downward, you can see me
In this madness I reach out for your hand
Two souls in union, spiralling to the ground
Child of Morpheus
Take me to your sweet euphoria
Child of Morpheus
Hold me in my dreams
Tranquil angel
Falling with no fear of landing
Child of Morpheus
Close my eyes for me
I’ve touched your beauty, tasted your poison brew
You’ve held me closer than any man could do
Now come, sweet Morpheus, there’s lands we’ve yet to see
Unfold your comforting arms, and we’ll fall endlessly
How I love you, Morpheus, my soul has ached for you
You gave me comfort while life was so cruel
Your time is precious, I’ll waste not what you share
Let’s fall again now, as far as we would dare

8.02.2006 г.

beautiful by India Arie



India Arie
















The time
is right
I'm gonna pack my bags
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountain
I see the bright sun shinning

And I want to live inside the glow
I wanna go to place where
I am nothing and everything

That exists between here and nowhere

I wanna got to a place time has consequence oh yeah
The sky opens to my prayers
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
Please understand that it not that I don't care

But right know these wall are closing in on me
I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place were
I can breathe
I wanna go to place were
I can hold the intangible

And let of the pain with all my might
I wanna go to a place where
I am suspended in ecstasy

Some where between dark and light
Where wrong becomes right...

7.02.2006 г.

sometimes...


Sometimes I look in my past and I see nothing more then white spots, hundred, thousand, millions...Small white spots that sometimes became together and sometimes separate...Inside them there are hidden fear, sorrow,nightmares, dreams, mistakes, happy and sad thoughts, billion words... Wrong steps...Buried deep inside the past years...Those small circle things is me..All are me..All took the time with them and they have its scars....I'm so afraid to touch them, because they are my memories, my unfulfilled dreams and lost expectations, unspoken words... I'm just walking so slowly around them, every stem I make is half, by mending my pace my hearth starting to beat faster. I'm keep walking and they are still moving around me..When I close my eyes I still see them moving...There is no room to hide from them...No place to escape...I can see through them and they can see through me...I can see myself inside them , every peace is me,every past is me , every move is me...